-Some 'friends' are only friends when give them a reason to be-

After 4 1/2 years...full of fervor, full of passion, full of wonder and hope, I realized that I wasn't 19 anymore. I was older. I was more mature that n people expected me to be. I was bolder, I was harder and more calloused about the reality we live in. After seeing people beat up to a pulp, stabbed, die in their sleep, get sick to the point of death...wouldn't you be?

Funny...my father came to pick me up. After all these years, he finally decided to show up and try to be a part of my life...my new life. We stayed at a hotel for a couple of days and then found an apartment. He wasn't there for me before all this happened...he left after a couple months.

It didn't fade me. Got used to it after a year or two in the darkness. Funny...I thought I had friends. I thought I had a girlfriend. They all left me after a month in darkness. Like my super-heroes disappeared from me...so did my 'close friends'. My mother had me at birth, by herself in the hospital while my father was at the local bar...and she was there the whole time for me, even thereafter. Friends? I had to relearn what it meant to have them again. My mindset was confused and twisted let alone suffering from Arrested development. Indeed...life had just started.

I found a girl shortly after that I wooed and convinced to go out with me. She was very special to me. Interesting enough, she had a boyfriend that she broke up with after she met me. Had no idea, but he was psycho car chases and all). But I was not psycho. I was a changed man with a short leash. No time to be a hero. She got to know my mother.

Shortly after, she died. She fell asleep with candles in her room and got burned alive. She always used to sing to me, "Champagne Supernova" by Oasis. Yes, I remember now. She used to accentuate "...faster than a cannonball..."

I had no money or friends, and one JC Penney department store card in my name. Where were my super-heroes.

But there was hope...

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